2 things today
1. UNHAPPY!
some people...
ok la dont use some people
CH they all
during promnight i tell them we will go watch movie on the 28th or 29th
x'mas eve they say they can make it only on their off day on the firday
so well i just had to go according to their schedule
since they are working and im not
BUT
they dint say they have something on
until last minute ytd on the 28th dec 11pm++ which is just one hour ago
when i got real pissed off
and called PY to contact them
oh well now they say they are going for the cycling thing
fine if you are going for the cycling thing
just tell me straight
so that i can have other activities for myself
you think becos eu all ps me
i will get angry or revenge on you all
im not such a SMALL KID
at least i will really appreacite it if THEY could tell me earlier or something
in the end CH called me
CH: hey go tomrrow la
ME: wat's happening tomorrow? (i had to act like an ignorant 'victim')
CH: come for the cycling trip with us la mummy we miss you leii
ME: NOT GOING im NOT INTERESTED (wat do you all treat me as)
me and PY on the other line
PY: ZM and TROY say they were asked 2 weeks ago
ME: (PISSED)
back to CH
TROY[not to the speaker] : aiya... (i dint really hear that)... she go there oso ZUO BO
ME: i go there ZUO BO ma so BYEBYE!
hung it up...
but i left a msg to wish them happy and also make myself calm down
ME: enjoy yourselves tell the others too (: [wat a fake smilely face]
CH: sorry for telling you late...
ME: nvm la. you all more busy ma. i ZUOBO de ppl where got right to say anything
ya im definitely BUAY SONG
the sarcartism i displayed
ppl meet them 2 weeks ago
im the one who's LAST MINUTE
they are so 'FISRT' minute
not going le oso nv tell me
they really think i so ZUO BO
wanna meet me then i must meet them
when i wanna meet them i need an appointment
people busy ma
i nv work so ZUOBO sure got time de ma
later when i say more they accuse me of being jealous
them going to the cycling trip and not going to the movies with me
we'rs going to leave each other soon
is there a need for me to be JEALOUS?
and why must i be
i always believe and regard them as my best bunch of friends and i dont mind giving in my time and efforts
BUT sometimes i just feel they dont deserve
well we are all friends i always give way and comfort them to such extend
but when my problem comes who helped me
barely anyone gave TRUE comments
i know it myself that going out esp in a class outing im always a ZUOBO
but do you think i need a close friend to tell me that
it does not show any concern or well being
it just make me feel that im not welcomed
since im not welcomed why bother to be a thick skin
and since you all are not going cant you all give me a call or something
i need to prepare and contact other ppl too
that's responsibilities
i DOUBT they HAVE
just for a sorry with NO VALID reasons
i have to recontact the others
until this late
is that fair to me?
i think its time for me to stop all the concern and so on
becos im taken for granted
laugh if you think its funny but when you have a taste of it
i think you will be hiding in your room
and thowing everything out of the window
but i guessed that was what im born for
forget it
i was too naive to think that i could at least get them to see a movie together
before next year starts before i get into a life with only myself facing junior college
in the end...
but well that's heaven's will
2. HAPPY
DAREN got into the top 8 finals
and he broke records for the points today
43points
=D